I feel homeless

I dont know why but I feel homeless. People who are close to me dont seem to anymore. Maybe I am expecting too much? I dont know why recently having a sense of belonging seem to get more and more important. Maybe that's why I am feeling kind of homeless. I know people do care, just that they cannot be with me 24/7. Is this one of those nights that I missing the past again?

This career of mine seem to draw me so far away from where I should belong. Can anyone understand how I am feeling? Why do I feel I have no friends when I know clearly I do have a lot of friends, plus those that I just made who are constantly wanting to meet up with me. I guess I am looking for someone to share my life with. Someone that I can tell about what happened each day. Am I looking for a boyfriend? Do all singles feel this way? I think I am really just missing the past.

I know I should just focus on God. He is constant. He is here for me to tell Him and I will try to find comfort in Him. I am not lonely because I have Him. I am just missing the past and just disappointed when people does not seem to remember you but it is human nature to forget. Well I decided not to go because my God daughter already booked me 1 week in advance so I should not make her sad, even though I really wish to be at the occasion that means to me.