Pushing myself to move

I answered God's call today! I was at PPC meeting today and it was the day to elect new office barriers, which means I can finally leave my post as the assistant secretary. However I do know that there might be a chance to be elected again. I really wish not to be elected again, as sitting in for meetings with the adults simply made me clueless of what has been going on. Perhaps I am not mature enough to understand how they work or the nature of this organisation. Quite a failure though that I am in this organisation for 2 years, yet I still dont really understand the structure.

Well I know that most people would decline when they were nominated because their own group has quite a bit of responsibilities already. I was thinking that it would be very unreasonable for me to decline because I dont have any group responsibility even though I have other responsibilities like family and work but so do others. However at the same time, it would not make sense to be elected because I am not representing any group. So it was rather ironic. Anyway I told God that if He really wants me to do it, I wont decline and yup I was nominated to be the secretary instantly.

I also took the chance today to find a community that I should serve. I shortlisted a few and rank them accordingly. At the beginning during the registeration, there was a lady from the FIRE ministry was verbalising that her other partner cannot make it due to the heavy workload of their ministry. At the point I felt like that may be a good place for me to go. If I am not wrong, everybody will take turn to teach the children and I not necessary have to be on the days of their lesson for every week. If I am not able to teach, I am able to help them out on the admin side or helping to prepare lessons for them too. These do not necessary need to always go down to church. I had all these thoughts only when I was heading home, so I will find out more.

I have been feeling very exhausted and drained as each day passes by, it feels like physically sick. I told God to grant me health and energy to serve Him but I read in the book of St Teresa of Avila that she fell sick because she didnt serve the Lord properly. I was thinking if that might be my case. Perhaps I should really push myself to serve Him no matter how tired I am and He will grant me the health eventually. All right before I get more unhealthy, I should go rest now.